What to do?

I have the hardest time with second guessing myself. For example, last night I couldn’t get a hold of Melissa (Beckee’s sister) to go with me and sign contracts so I got in my car and headed to Orem to sign anyway. About half way there I chickened out, there’s no way I can take a chance on keeping two contracts. I was almost home again when I decided to turn around and at least go talk to my landlord. I finally got a hold of Melissa and the only real day we can go sign is tomorrow.

Another crucial decision I recently made was starting a second job with Eleutian. It’s a great company and they are growing by leaps and bounds but I’m not sure if I still want it. I would be working from 4am-8am, paid once a month, and I’m not sure if I even want to do this in the long run. I’ve been thinking, I’m already established here at BYUB, even if I don’t like my current job very much. Plus I only have a year left. After graduation I am pretty sure I will end up in Texas because my family is way too stubborn to move. I’ve missed way too much of Caitlin’s first 6 years and let’s face it, mom and dad will need all the help they can get with that one.

I’m pretty sure this Thanksgiving break will find me trying to reorganize my life and figuring out what the heck I want to do for a career after graduation. But I can’t think about it this week, I have so much to get done before Friday morning.

So the other night I had a dream that I was sitting on the plane Friday morning, everything was great and I was excited to be going home. All of a sudden it hit me; I forgot to take my ClCv test on Thursday! So now I’m a nervous wreck making sure I don’t forget anything. Oh! Icing on the cake, forgot to do the take home part of my MFG test…that’s great! I feel like everything is just swirling down the toilet.