What to do?

I have the hardest time with second guessing myself. For example, last night I couldn’t get a hold of Melissa (Beckee’s sister) to go with me and sign contracts so I got in my car and headed to Orem to sign anyway. About half way there I chickened out, there’s no way I can take a chance on keeping two contracts. I was almost home again when I decided to turn around and at least go talk to my landlord. I finally got a hold of Melissa and the only real day we can go sign is tomorrow.

Another crucial decision I recently made was starting a second job with Eleutian. It’s a great company and they are growing by leaps and bounds but I’m not sure if I still want it. I would be working from 4am-8am, paid once a month, and I’m not sure if I even want to do this in the long run. I’ve been thinking, I’m already established here at BYUB, even if I don’t like my current job very much. Plus I only have a year left. After graduation I am pretty sure I will end up in Texas because my family is way too stubborn to move. I’ve missed way too much of Caitlin’s first 6 years and let’s face it, mom and dad will need all the help they can get with that one.

I’m pretty sure this Thanksgiving break will find me trying to reorganize my life and figuring out what the heck I want to do for a career after graduation. But I can’t think about it this week, I have so much to get done before Friday morning.

So the other night I had a dream that I was sitting on the plane Friday morning, everything was great and I was excited to be going home. All of a sudden it hit me; I forgot to take my ClCv test on Thursday! So now I’m a nervous wreck making sure I don’t forget anything. Oh! Icing on the cake, forgot to do the take home part of my MFG test…that’s great! I feel like everything is just swirling down the toilet.

Eleutian

What has happened since the last time I wrote? I got a new job! I work for Eleutian as well as BYU Broadcasting now. Eleutian is a company who provides ESL teachers. Right now I'm in training and will only be a sub until I come back from the Christmas break. Our main clients are in Korea right now but soon we will be opening up in South American countries.

They gave me a key to the building last night. It feels all official. In more ways then the key. I'm going to be working two jobs until I decide if I want to stay with Eleutian full time. Luckily I'm starting out as a sub; just getting my feet wet. But I'll have to make a big decision come January.

Saturday they started the training. It was a lot to take in but I think I'll be able to handle it. The training was long but they fed us Cafe Rio for lunch so I'm not complaining. Last night I had another training with Beth, I think she was in Wyoming. Crazy huh! The company is based out of Wyoming and has just opened a branch in Provo. The company uses Skype to talk to their students in Korea; we also use Skype to talk to employees in Wyoming. I have another training tonight to test my ability to teach and then I actually call people in Korea tomorrow. Crossing my fingers.

I'm very very nervous, these students really look up to their English teachers. (Refreshing from what American students do to their teachers)

Good news or Bad news first?

I’m going to start with the bad and end on a good note. Whitney and I studied (not completely effectively but studied none the less) for a couple of hours and then I studied for at least 2 more today before going to take the English 291 test. I thought I had a pretty good grasp, or at least as good as I could get on the concepts but I sat down…took one look at the test…and yep you guessed it…Jessica blanked. I couldn’t remember a thing. The only thing I could remember was the dates I had memorized, but I hadn’t memorized enough. It probably didn’t help that I stayed up pretty late last night and couldn't stay awake in class today…but technically…I did get a nap (in class) before I took the test, shouldn’t that have helped? I guess the saying “I’ve slept since then” counts in this case. Needless to say I more then bombed that test. I left the testing center around 6:30 and it was already dark. I don’t care how much “more” sleep I get on that one night…daylight savings sucks! I’m moving to Indiana!

On to better news... It’s November! I fly home in 18 more days and I figured out today that I will be home for Caitlin’s birthday. I haven’t been home for her birthday since she was 2 or 3 and that just about kills me. Weston and I share a birthday and this year we both have our last tests for the year on that day…but we’re going to make it up in NM skiing!!! I think I will get Caitlin (who is turning 6 now) the new Tinkerbell movie. What do you think?

tagged

I've been tagged. My former roommate Sarah tagged me to place the fourth picture in my forth folder. It's nothing too spactacular, I have a ton of pictures from the last two football games I went to. At this last one these two guys wore pumpkins on their heads. I don't know if they were real but they kept them on most of the game I think. Crazy people. I think I'm supposed to tag 2 more people and since there's only a couple of people who have blogs that might read this I'll choose Joanna and Chris.